4 Months

Hello,

Its been four months since My Baby Bright Eyes passed away, and its not getting any easier for me. I miss her so much. I think about her almost 24 hours a day and cry often because I miss her so much. I get angry at God for letting her die, he could have let he live.
Bright Eyes was my best friend, I loved her more than any person on earth.
She was a huge part of my life. When I was sad, hurt, not feeling well, sick depressed.
one look at her cute little face with her big beautiful bright green Eyes made me feel 100% better no matter what, and what made it even better, was when she would get on my lap and give me a hug and kiss.

This is not only hurting me, its also hurting Mokey really bad he cries for her at least two times every day, he looks around for her in all her hiding spots and places she liked to take her cat naps. then he will sit in the middle of the living room and cry out its so sad.

Then there is Puppy her Mum she isn't her self either she won't play she mopes around. she she too looks around for Bright Eyes and she cries every night for her really loud, if I'm sleeping it wakes me up it sounds like she is being hurt or killed its not a high pitch sound its a real deep pitch. I get up and give her hugs that makes her feel better.
Hugs have a lot of power to make anyone feel better.

I'm scared to take them to a vet after what the vet did to my Baby Bright Eyes.
but i took them to one today, I did check them out in every way possible.
The vet i took Bright Eyes to was referred to me by another vet who said they are very good.
but stupid me didn't check them out, i just took her there, by the other vets recommendation.
I did tell that vet what happened he cut off all contact to that vet and said he will go to court on our side. I said thanks but i don't think that is a good idea, plus it may harm your business, because you were associated with a vet that kills peoples pets/family

This new vet checked them out and said they are suffering with severe depression.
besides that they are healthy. Puppy is a little overweight, Mokey a little underweight.
He wants to put them on an antidepressant for 4 weeks. he said they do not have to stay on it like humans do. Antidepressants make cats forget why they are depressed. once they forget what made them depressed then they are no longer depressed and can stop the medication. I thought that was funny, what can't humans be the same way?

Its a very low dose, I checked out the medication. it only has one side effect it may make them sleepy. there hasn't been any reports of negative reactions to the medication, no pets have died while on the medication. the company who makes the medication has an A+ rating on all their medications no pets have ever died as a cause of their medication while taking their medications. So, I'm going to let them take it they start taking it in the Morning and take it every morning for 4 weeks then they see the vet, but he will come to our house and watch them for a while to see how they are doing in their home. if they are doing better then they will stop taking it, if not then they will take it for one more week. after that they have to stop because they may become addicted to it.
Then they will have to go to drug rehab lol

I know a few people who have had kitties die and they act like oh well my cat died so what.
That tells me they never loved their kitty.
I also knew a few people who's dog died they acted pretty much the same, except for one
he killed himself he couldn't handle the lost of his dog. thinking killing himself he would be with his dog again.
That's Totally Wrong. If you kill yourself, you go straight to Hell. There are no pets or animals in Hell, because pets, and animals can't sin. All pets and animals go to Heaven.

My Doctor put me on an antidepressant but I haven't taken it because of all the side effects
the number one side effect is the desire to commit suicide. number tow is sudden death those two alone made me say no freaking way an I taking this. the others are seizures dizziness, insomnia, explosive diarrhea, migraine headaches, heart palpitations. and its a class 1 addictive medication meaning its very addictive. I'm not taking it.
I don't think anyone would take it knowing about all the side effects?
I called my doctor telling him. he said i know but its a very good antidepressant don't worry about the side effects. I asked for a different medication. he said no its this or nothing its the best on the market, there is nothing better.

That's all for now

My Baby Bright Eyes Grave Stone

Taken 12 February 2019

Taken 20 April 2019 BBE's Birthday

Taken 17 May 2019

Rest In Peace My Baby Bright Eyes

Rest In Peace My Baby Bright Eyes

April 20, 2010 - January 31, 2019

Bright Eyes Passed to the other side at 6:15 AM this Thursday morning 31st of January, 2019.
She started having serious issues around 2 AM earlier the same morning.

She was a very strong willed Kitty, she refused to give up.
She was the Best Kitty ever, she was truly My Best Friend, My Emotional Support Companion
She was always there for me, she knew when I was stressed out, sad, or sick.
when I was, she would do silly things to make me happy and feel better.
She would also give me this look like saying its ok, everything will be alright.
She truly loved me. not just because, I was her food source like most cats.
It was real 100% true love.
She showed me that every single day. She made me laugh every single day.
She was also the smartest kitty I have ever seen, I believe she was smarter than most humans, including myself.

As she was dying, I told her to let go. Go to God he will take good care of you in heaven, where you will never thrust, you will never be hungry, all your illnesses will be gone, you will never be sick again. you can run in outside in the grass and not get fleas or ticks.
Its sleepy time Baby Girl. I gave her a kiss and hug telling I Love You, When I die, we will be back together again, forever. I promise.
Then she let out a breath and never inhaled again.

This is the last picture of Bright Eyes alive.
It was taken at 12:07 PM Thursday, 31 January 2019
She usually slept with me every night, this is how she slept with me.
This is not a pose for the picture.
When it got real cold she would get under the covers with me right against my chest with her head under my chin, it was easy to give her a kiss. She also laid against my stomach.
I believe she laid against me to keep me warm. She was a very caring Kitty.

I Love You Forever My Baby Bright Eyes. We Will Be Together Again, I Promise.

PS: I said (I Love You Forever My Baby Bright Eyes. We Will Be Together Again, I Promise.)
a few times to Bright Eyes in her last few hours, and minutes of her life.
My wife seriously thought I was thinking about killing myself.

I said no way!  If I were to do that I would never see My Baby Bright Eyes again.
She asked why is that?
I said: When you kill yourself you go straight to hell, NOT to heaven.
Suicide is one of those unforgivable sins.

God will NOT forgive anyone, for any reason who kills their self, or has someone kill them.
Example: Suicide by Cop, making a cop shoot you dead.
In God's eye its the same as if you killed yourself.

I want to go to Heaven to be with Jesus and My Baby Bright Eyes.

It also says in the bible, All animals go to Heaven when they die, because they can't sin
God didn't give them that choice, animals only have limited free will.